Well let’s say good bye to 2010, and take the time to appreciate all the lessons we were supposed to learn so we don’t continue the same mistakes into 2011.
For me its was a hell of a year , i seemed to be running the whole year from behind the eight ball , and in turn trying to play catch up and lived in fear . I settled both for work environments and relationships which i just should not have done.
Pretty much everything in my life at the moment i have settled for , the house im in the car i drive , you name it i settled and this is where inspiration i believe has died .
One should never settle, as settling is the first step of dying , as to settle means you have given up or believe you are not worthy of what you had your sights on which is a sad way to live a life.
We all need something to strive for , something to get out of bed in the morning for and without that life is just sad
Why did i settle in a relationship? i have spent hours pondering just that , and have come up with , yes im lonely , yes i don’t feel worthy , and yes i really didn’t like me. If i had someone bellow my standards there was no push , no reason to exercise ,, no reason to get off the couch , no reason to stop after three beers instead of a carton , no reason to fix the things in me that niggle at me when i don’t . And probably most important at all no reason to plan and build a future .
So why would i just settle? , because i didn’t like me, i did not forgive me for past and held on to anger which is unhealthy. This may sound simple but i honestly believe it is harder for some so its a process i am doing now on a daily basis.
So how will i battle this?
First thing is loving me again and knowing i am worthy of so much more
Looking after me and my goals , start small but start
Instead of looking at loneliness, see it as solitude to work on being the best me i can be
Build incredible amazing friendships with those i admire
Live each day accountable and make sure the next day is always better
Spend less time in others drama’s as all they do is drain you , and time and time again those people will always have drama
Be accountable for me
Keep a clean house , a clean house helps keep a clean mind , and being a bachelor is no excuse
These are my steps to the future , they may appear small steps to some but ones i can move with
Lets have an awesome 2011
