Eating a 10 yr old Frog and loving every bite!!!!

For those of you who don’t know, i have been having a real ruff time of life lately. Just nothing seems to fall were i want, and it has hurt me painfully in self esteem and motivation and a few other areas.

I have studied personal development now for a few years (hence the Brian Tracy reference as a title) to which i have been putting these things into practice.

Think positive

Know what you want and go after it

Never give in or back down

Be clear, concise and direct

And i have been getting super frustrated when things don’t work out. I haven’t had a work contract in months and i feel like less of a man for it.

I have taken on a new Passion which is Triathlon training, and as much as i love it in the last few months i have allowed it to become a distraction. How you might say?.

We’ll see it is simple, because everything else in my life was not working and not going well i threw myself into training where for a time i was getting results. Problem is now i am not even training because i have woken up to the fact of i am using training as a distraction to other responsibilities and pains in my life.

Yes this works for short term but if you do not address the issues as they arise and deal with them they end up like a cancer and infect every other part of your life. So this is where i was at.

So i sat down and looked at the things i have avoided which could have created this chain of events or this bad karma depending on your beliefs.

The problem is i am juggling far too many things, since problems with finding contracts and bills coming in , i have been doing the royal juggling act, thinking like a man that “ i will be able to handle this when work comes in “ and the scary thing since i have sat down and been completely honest with myself there are a lot of issues i have not addressed , even one from over ten years ago i didn’t address because at the time i couldn’t due to lack of funds and pain related to it and the “ i will be able to handle this when work comes in “ yet always said i would and never did.

How many times can someone promise themselves to do something, and not follow through can you get away with before there is a reaction because of it?. And at what cost?

How does one not recognise the feeling of worthlessness, self belief and faith, and pure disappointment due to lack of honesty to himself? And due to this not see the ripple effect it has on the relationship you have with others?

This truly is an ugly circle, i was not only in but had jumped onto with both feet, so i was sitting here wondering how to fix this? I have the list , but no work nor funds to fix it. But have i told them that?

And if so in which order do i start to call? Just then a bit of a Audio book i bought years ago hit me .

It’s called “Eat that Frog by Brian Tracy “ and is excellent yet somehow i have managed to clutter my mind with everything else to remember it.

Mark Twain once wrote “ If the first thing you do each morning is to eat a live frog , you can go through the day with the satisfaction that its probably the worst thing that will happen to you all day long “.

Your Frog is the biggest most important task the one you will tend to procrastinate on if you don’t do something about it. It’s also possibly that it’s the one task, which can have the greatest positive impact on your life and results at the moment.

The basics of the Audio is that not to put off the things you dread, as there will never be the so called right time to get to it….the only way to regain the quality of your life and self esteem is to go for it every morning and start the day by doing the thing you most fear or dislike on your list first.

Now the basic rule of Frog eating is if you have 2 frogs, always eat the ugliest one first, the one you put of the longest or dread the most of all.

So i reworked my list honestly and reviewed it completely and put the most dreaded thing first and then so on and so on…

The weird thing was as i was sitting back reviewing my list the number one issue there was over ten years old. I thought about all the lies i have told myself about it over the years and how i have avoided taking control or responsibility for it without recognizing it, and in turn have felt inadequate and inferior.

Well that was it, so with a deep Gasp i grabbed the phone and called them to set this straight, nervous and worried i told of my situation and explained how i got here, and how i want to fix it but due to my position was not sure of the right way to go about it and asked if they could assist me in it. To my surprise they were more than happy to help out. They informed me to write them a letter and send it to them explaining the situation and how it has rolled on and they would come back with a step by step plan for fixing it…..

You’re kidding right?? This thing i have carried for 10 years and have feared and dreaded was this easily fixed? And these people that i assumed were money eating people spitting assholes were really this friendly?? Why the hell did i not do this sooner?

So that was it , with my new found education and knowledge i sat down and took action by writing the letter as directed then hoping in the car and posting off.

I can’t believe the amount of crap and baggage i have put MYSELF through saying “ i will tend to it later” “now is not the right time “ “ i have other priorities and commitments “ all for nothing.

Anyways i can’t stay here talking about it …i have phone calls to make